A year ago I was reeling from the intense grief and pain of betrayal and loss.
Today, I can wake up without crying.
A year ago I had a very difficult time studying Scripture, struggled with saying the liturgy and dreaded the festivals due to haunting and painful memories.
Today, I can study effectively because I have taken ownership and responsibility of my own faith and traditions, not relying on someone to hold my hand. I have finally learned who my true leader and teacher is.
A year ago I was desperately hoping against hope that those I love would do the right thing - that what was happening was not real.
Today, I can be honest enough with myself to acknowledge the manipulation, cruelty, lack of compassion and truth of their actions.
A year ago I was immersing myself in worship and inspirational music trying to keep my head above water.
Today, I can listen to many types of music without falling into dark and deep melancholy (well, mostly).
A year ago I didn't realize how empathic I truly am.
Today, I can embrace and understand it with the help of HaShem.
A year ago I took my health for granted.
Today, I cannot.
A year ago I couldn't appreciate and anticipate a new day with hope.
Today, thankfully, I can.
2 comments:
Baruch HaShem... I'm so grateful.
I love how contemplative this is. Though I would never wish that level of pain on you, I am very thankful for the lessons we've all learned.
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